Doing better today. Ended up leaving work early yesterday. My supervisors were understanding, which was a huge help. Also a huge help…Earplugs. Just stopping some of the excess noise really helped my brain chill out. Got some decent rest. Now the day is better. I made it to work on time and I am able […]
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So my birthday was nice. It was low key. When I got back to the office yesterday, my coworkers had gotten me presents and they were nice. I appreciated them. And the day went fine. Nothing bad or stressful happened. Yet, my brain got overwhelmed. Which I felt when I got home from work. So,
Originally, this was going to be a victory post. I told myself last night that I WILL get up with my alarm, which is set for 5:45 am. And after I drank my coffee, ate breakfast, showered and meditated I would post on my blog about my success. Yay! One day of routine accomplished. Instead,
Since Friday, July 4th, I have not been feeling it. Or rather I have been feeling ALL of it. I continually question if I am good enough for this new job. I am continually questioning if this is what recovery looks like or am I still stuck in a cycle. It has been so long
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Literal picture of me this weekend. Thanks A.I. But seriously. The Brain is a wonderful, frustrating thing. I am not sure why but everything hit me on Friday. The job change, the fact that it has been 90 days, my wanting to change my habits, the fact that I have a 5K coming up that
Day three of blogging. I talked about “Atomic Habits” yesterday and how I am using it build a routine.Yet, it is slow going. I have to say I am making progress in certain areas. Struggling in others. I used to be a morning person. I used to think the day was half over by 9
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Story: Years ago the day to set your clock back was the last weekend of October. I remember as a kid this was the case. I can’t remember exactly when it changed to the first Sunday in November, I think I was in seventh or eighth grade, but it changed. The reason it changed was
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There are no pictures today. It was raining this morning and continued to rain off and on the rest of the day. I had planned to walk on my treadmill but with the weather came a migraine. I spent a good chunk of the day in bed. We will try it again tomorrow.
This is my bed. It is a black metal futon frame with a Full size mattress on it. The futon came with a typical futon mattress and for over two years I slept on the futon mattress (though I added a foam eggshell mattress topper). Realized several years ago my mental health is going down
My mind has been spastic. Thoughts going every which way. I have all of these to do list. I have all of these plans to change. And I am treading water. A little over a year ago I found the above TED talk. It was inspiring and for a while I was able to
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