Hello World!
We are half way through a new year. It has been six plus months since I posted on here. I hope to remedy that.
Winter was rough. Depression sucks. Now it is time for a new day. I got a new job in April. One in which my skills are being utilitized and in which I am, hopefully, making a difference in people’s lives.
A lot of things changed when I got the new job. Most for the good, a couple of not so good, but I am learning to adapt.
My schedule changed. I now go to bed at a “normal” old person bed time. I get up at a regular time, too. That has been a tremedous help in the sleep department.
Like I said, what I am doing changed and it gave me more of a purpose, more drive to show up to work.
And the pay and benefits are better. So I can pay my bills and still be comfortable, with income to spare. (Hopefully, going to savings.)
Now for the down sides. Mostly one. Physically. My activity level dropped and I snack more. So I have gained weight.
I can do something about it though. And I am starting today. By talking about it and getting out there that I am still struggling with depression in the mornings, I still have self doubts. The monster that is depression lingers and makes it hard for me to get to the gym. Life gets in the way too. Though that is more excuses. My own choices get in the way.
So I must be more mindful of my choices and really think about the long term, not only the present.
There is no magic pill, no sure fire path, only deliberate, informed choices that will lead to success. I take responsibility for me and my recovery. It is a journey I am happy to make and learn from my setbacks.
Because in the end it is my path to walk.